Having an emo day

Being ill has opened my eyes to how much we take for granted. Little things that one could normally do and not even bat an eye take a lot of my energy...going up 8 stairs, carrying 5-10 pounds from one room to another, standing stirring dinner for more than 2 minutes, cutting an onion, squatting to dig a few holes in the garden, going bowling, going for a liesurely walk around the block, grocery shopping for a few things, vacuuming one little room, going to church for three hours...I could go on.
I can do one of these things and be dead for a few hours or even the rest of the day lately. It still amazes me sometimes how weak I am. I can't wait to get better.I want to run and play and hike and bike and swim and act my age.
My best friends left on a cruise today, I had planned to go with them...then I got in a car accident. I'm sick of not being able to live.